Creating

Some people are really good with words.  They seem to know exactly what to say, which words to use.  In comparison to those people I usually tend to label myself as “visual” because words don’t ever come that easily to me.

But then there are those people who are really good at pictures.  Who create images that express so much, that validate the saying “A picture is worth a thousand words.” Compared to those people though, I’m not as visual as I sometimes think I am. I cannot create vision like they can. 

And so I find myself in this place.  Where what I create isn’t nearly good enough to be compared with that of a writer or an artist.

For the longest time I would have said that I wasn’t creative.  That I couldn't come up with stories or pictures that were worth anything.  And while I still can’t, I don’t say that anymore.  I know there must be something that I am good at, something that I create that is worth creating.

I am more than my ability to organize and complete administrative tasks.  Unfortunately I don’t know what that more is.  I don’t know what I contribute to the world, to society.  And I may never know.  But I do know that the God who created me did it right.  And that means I am exactly how I am supposed to be.  Even if I don’t get it, and sometimes feel inferior, I am right. 


And even more, I know that he has redeemed me.  That my faulty attempts at creating something worthwhile are made better by him.  That he uses my work to accomplish his purposes.  How crazy.  How insane.  How magnificent.  

Sometimes that is all that I cling to, all I hope in.  That my God loves me and made me this way. And that is good.

(photo credit: laurennicolewrites.com)