Wednesday, May 23, 2012

I never get to the point.

**Warning:  This blog meanders and completely misses the original point I intended to make.  Oh well. 

It's been nearly a month since I last wrote anything.  I'm gonna be honest.  I think the problem is that I read to many blogs.  My Google Reader keeps tabs on 33 different blogs for me.  I couldn't actually remember to check on that many blogs, so I have to enlist programs to do it for me.  And most of those blogs are written by fabulous writers.  Some of them write pretty much everyday. Others write about every other month.  Haha!  But what they write is always worth reading (at least in my opinion).

What I'm starting to notice though is that they are really contemplative people.  They are constantly examining EVERYTHING in their lives.  Why they have so many books.  What their child's random comment taught them about God.  How the purely and utterly mundane is beautiful in their eyes.  And that's great for them.  But my mind just doesn't work that way.

Another trend in the blog-o-sphere is writing about how ordinary people change the world.  And yet, the irony of it all, is that I wouldn't consider any of these people ordinary.  Many of them have authoritative voices on whatever they study.  That's not common, not ordinary at all.  Several of them are writing books.  Again, not ordinary.

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I'm not a writer. 

I'm not a storyteller. 

I'm not a savvy business-minded individual. 

I'm not a natural born leader. 

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What I am is much different.  I am not the kind of person that normally has a blog, or that people want to keep tabs on.  My life really isn't that interesting.  (Although I'm sure some would say it's about to be, come August).  I don't have any hobbies really.  I like all the things everyone says they like.  Like most in my generation, I'm passionate about social justice but am mostly unwilling to do anything about it except click a few buttons online showing my support of some new cause.

My only real defining characteristic is the God that guides my life.  And I know that there are more than a few others out there that serve the same God as I do.  But in my mind he is the only thing worth being defined by.  And even though he's called more than a few others to the work of social justice in the world, his call on my life is still all that can define me.  And while I still have yet to take any steps (unless of course you count enrolling in a Master's program that hasn't actually started yet) toward doing the things he has made me passionate about, here is a list of what they are.


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I am passionate about discipleship.

I am passionate about the image of God in each person. 

.....about Shalom, and what that means for all the people of the earth. 

.....about studying the word of God so that we might know his character better, not so that we have a list of right and wrong. 

....about vulnerability and being completely who you are in every situation

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